January 2009

As you ran away, You left me here,
Making cuts without a care.
I tried to warn you, I tried to call,
I needed you, that is all.

Now Lying on the bathroom floor,
Replaying you calling me a whore.
Feeling pain throughout my limbs
How much longer can I go on like this?

It's only when I really think,
About all the times we had those weeks.
It makes me crack, crumble, and fall.
I thought you'd be there through it all.

I'm shaking now,
I'm blanking out.
All I want to do is shout.
I want to hate you, oh so bad.
But at you, I can't be mad.

They say that love changes someone,
It makes them not say no.
That's how I felt when I was with you,
But I'm not sure, maybe you know.

My hands are cold,
My toes are too.
I'm freezing now,
How are you?

That's all I ask, and I worry too.
I want to be there to help you.
But she fucking does,
You don't need me.
She's more than I will ever be.

Take my heart,
And tear it apart.
Laugh and tell me I'm not smart.

Say your last goodbyes before I die.
Try and tell me that it's all alright.
But you'll leave again, and things will change.
Unless you're here, I'll never be the same.

January 2009

Don't know how much more I can take
Standing here about to break
Dropping down on hands an knees
You not being here is killing me

Falling apart so beautifully
All of this is new to me
Tell me a story we both once knew
The story where I fell in love with you

How does it feel to fall in love with a lie
It's the same way I've learned to always get by
He knows I'm so different now than before
He knows that I love him
He knows that I'm torn

I don't even like you
I never even did
Maybe I'm stupid
I'm still just a kid

I'm feeling your sorrows
I'm feeling your pain
I'm feeling your weakness, you pity, your games.

I hate that stupid story
Then one you always told
Where wedding bells would ring
And together we'd grow old

Soon this girl stepped into play
But my love forever stayed
You laughed and quickly went away
A broken promise that will never fade

She says "am i more than you bargained for?"
She wants to know so bad
Cause she knows she might be too much
But if you leave her now she wont get mad.